My friends and I were walking towards the bus circle when it suddenly hit me.
I’ve just completed my Junior Year of high school.
In August I’ll be filling out forms requesting for my transcripts. Mailing my applications to various schools. Retaking the SAT and ACT just to see how well I can do. And applying for scholarships to ameliorate the money matter.
I’ve gotten a lot better at this jumping business.
I have my last AP Exam today. I’m so happy that I might actually cry (not exaggerating).
I’m surprised by how calm I’ve been these last two weeks though. When I took my very first AP last year, I was so stressed and scared that I almost started crying in the middle of testing. Maybe it’s because I actually learned something in this year’s AP classes. And that I enjoyed it. Or it’s because I remembered that my life will not be ruined by a bad score.
Dress from Forever 21. Shades from Poshmark.
Shoes are from Wild Diva Lounge.
Either way, I’m glad that it’s almost over. Plus, technically I only have three final exams since I took the AP Exams for my other classes ( #helltotheyes ).
But it’s not just AP testing that’s ending. School is too. Summer starts in three weeks.
I’m both ecstatic and shocked by how fast this year has gone by. And I’m freaked out by the fact that I’m an upcoming Senior.
So weird. So old.
Anyway, I’m ready to get this thing over with and party like there’s no tomorrow.
So I’ve got U. S. History STAAR today and the AP U. S. History on Friday. Then next Wednesday I’ve got AP English Language and Composition.
In the last couple of days my AP teachers have been giving pep talks and saying how bad AP scores is not the equivalent to a ruined life. However, despite their good intentions, it actually made me feel anxious. I guess it’s because it hadn’t hit me that APs have begun until, well, now.
Even though I feel like I’m about to hyperventilate every time I think about those tests, I actually think I’ve got a chance to pass. And maybe even do well! (Such an optimist, right?)
Shades and hat from Poshmark.
Shoes are Rotteli.
I felt even better after my APUSH teacher showed us these pictures:
I’m happy it’s Friday that I might actually cry (so sad).
I just need to get through today.
I have an AP Multiple Choice test in English and a quiz in U.S. History AP. If it weren’t for the fact that I have those two classes at the end of the day, I would’ve just skipped and slept (just kidding… kind of… not really…).
You know those posters for superhero movies? The ones that have the characters being cool and looking off into the distance? Well that’s basically what mine would look like if I had one.
If I could have a superpower I’d probably want the power to fly. That’d be so cool. I’d never be late to school, I wouldn’t be stuck in traffic, and if I saw people that I really hated I could drop water balloons on them, you know, that kind of stuff.
This is actually an impromptu photoshoot.
Technically I had already finished but my mother still had one more outfit. So while Sofia, our photographer, and I waited for my momma to put on her shoes and get herself situated, we decided to squeeze in another shoot for me.
I didn’t say the brand of my clothes because the majority of what I was wearing is so old that I can’t remember. And the tags are washed out. But the shoes are from H&M and the necklace is Alexander McQueen (and from my mother’s jewelry stash).
Now normally I would wear a crop top with an undershirt or layer it over a fitted dress because I’m not used to showing off so much skin. But I thought of trying it out since, well for starters it was so freakin’ hot, and also because I don’t have a lot of opportunities to wear it.
I know that it doesn’t seem like a difficult thing to do, but standing on my tippy toes in those shoes was hard. The shoes are a little bit big and the ground had a smooth surface, so I kept slipping and almost lost my shoes frequently.
But it made for a good shot though.
Sofia, our photographer, and my mother said I looked like a worn out doll that was done with life.
Half of that is true.
We had the photoshoot at my old middle school’s bus circle. I know it seems as though we’re obsessed with it but I promise that’s not the case. It just so happens that it’s near our house and is expansive enough that there are multiple backdrops to choose from in one location.
This top is perfect for when you’re done with whiny bitches who need some common sense. Which is basically the case for me everyday in Science #sorrynotsorry
I know this post isn’t very inspiring. I’m just incredibly run down from AP Exam studying and the search for recommendation letters. I’ll try harder next time 👍, but now I must go do some Spanish work (yay…not really).