Disney Heroine Series: I Am Loyal, Brave and True

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“You said that you’d trust Ping. Why is Mulan any different?”

This week I’ve paired up with Sheela Goh to do DisneyBound outfits based on some of our favorite heroines.

My next inspiration is the quirky and strong Mulan from the film of the same name. The film was part of the era known as the Disney Renaissance which is known for its amazing and successful animated movies. The story and its characters are based on The Ballad of Mulan.

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Mulan as the titular character in the animated and live-action films.
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Momma’s interpretation of Belle.

Growing up, many people assumed that Mulan was my favorite character just because we’re both Asian. This made me determined to not have Mulan as a favorite of mine in order to spite others that made those assumptions.

Eventually I realized that that was ridiculous.

I loved Mulan. I mean, she went to war so her father wouldn’t have to. Who wouldn’t admire her? She’s also proof for those who can’t seem to understand that a woman can be a fighter while still maintaining her femininity.

I am proud to have Mulan as the first Asian in the Princess Line and for the introduction of an Asian culture in Disney film. I look forward to there being more 😉

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Lea Salonga (left) was the singing voice and Ming-Na Wen (right) was the speaking voice for Mulan.
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I admit that I had never heard of Liu Yifei before she was announced as Mulan herself, but she looked amazing in all of the previews and I can’t wait to see her on the big screen!

There has been a lot of hate from people when it was revealed that certain aspects of the animated film would be changed: Grandmother Fa becomes a sister called Hua Xiu, Captain Li Shang is divided into Commander Tung and Chen Honghui, and Mushu the dragon is now a phoenix. The remake is also not a musical like it’s original was. Some people have already made up their minds about the live-action version just based on these changes. But as much as I adored the original, in particular Eddie Murphy’s portrayal of Mushu, I’m excited about this new take. Change isn’t always bad, so I’m going to hold off on any judgment until I see the film in its entirety. Until then, I remain super excited 🙂

I also need to give some love to the original Mulan, known as Ming-Na Wen. She’s an amazing actress who is also hilarious! I especially love her as the stoic and loyal Agent Melinda May in Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. that can take down anyone in her path.

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“There’s a heart that must be free to fly.”

On My Own

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These past months have been the first time that I’ve not only lived in an apartment, but also on my own.

I never thought that it would be so hard to move into a new place, but I’m not gonna lie, it was hella rough.

I was originally supposed to still live on-campus, but my application to move off-campus was approved one month before school. Just finding a place was a miracle.

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I had originally ordered some furniture from Rooms to Go that was supposed to arrive not too long after I moved in. Of course, life didn’t want to make it easy on me.

The order was canceled for NO REASON and had to be reordered all over again. So I literally had no bed for a little over a month. Luckily we got an air mattress so I didn’t have to sleep on the floor. Normally I can sleep anywhere, but these floors broke me.

After a long time my bed finally arrived, along with my dresser. I unintentionally made it a princess room, but I love it! The mirror that came with my dresser, however, is so huge and my walls are so not trustworthy that I haven’t hung it up yet for fear that it might fall one day. But I also received my side dresser/table thingy. It was originally going to be a shoe rack but it’s bigger than I expected.

But I never received my sofa, coffee table, and end table. I don’t know how, but they were somehow canceled or something, so I didn’t even bother. At that point I had a couple of chairs so it wasn’t that horrible.

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A few days after moving in, my newly bought Wifi thingy broke too. It just wouldn’t work and in the end we had to get a replacement. It probably wasn’t that big of a deal, but moving in was so stressful that I just sat down and bawled my eyes.

A part of one of my walls had also part of it torn off and I had to get my dishwasher fixed so that it’d stop leaking.

Not to mention the gecko that snuck in and has been living in the apartment this whole time. Without even helping pay the rent. What a hoe.

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Months later I finally decided to also get an actual dining table with chairs.

I got them from Groupon and I love it!

I felt so cool putting them together all on my own, like freaking Bob the Builder or something.

Initially the chairs were missing and I thought, “Oh God, not again.” But it turns out that they were delivered to the front office. And I had to carry this huge box. From the front. To my apartment. Which is allllll the way at the back of the complex.

I was initially offered help but I thought, “Nah, I can do this.”

One minute later, and I had barely left the front office, I was offered help by someone else. But this time I was like, “Hell yes, please!” I never knew getting furniture could be so complicated.

 

I’m also the only one in my squad that’s living alone.

So literally everyone is like “Make sure to lock your doors!” or “Don’t walk back alone!” or “You need to get pepper spray!” At one point I was given a baseball bat, just in case.

His name is Badger.

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Despite how rough it was in the beginning, like super rough, I enjoyed living alone. It was a terrifying, yet somewhat freeing experience.

I’m grateful for it because now I know what to do and what not to do when it comes to apartment hunting. I now know what to look for and what’s most important to me.

All Roads Lead to Rome

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For those of you who don’t know, I spent my first semester of the current school year in Europe. The University of Dallas has what is called the Rome Program. A group of 95 students, 5 professors, and a small group of staff live together for four months on the outskirts of Rome. Almost every weekend is a four day weekend, so everyone is allowed to travel outside of Italy until classes resume late Monday morning. There were also tons of class trips made throughout Italy and Greece.

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While I had been to Italy before (Milan, Venice and Calabria), I had never been to Rome.

To say I was both nervous and excited is a serious understatement. Not only was I once again in a foreign country, far from my mother for four months (the longest we had ever been apart), I would also be with these 100 something people 24/7 for a whole semester. On a very small campus.

Everything and anything was foreign.

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I told myself don’t get attached,
But in my mind I play it back,
Spinning faster than the plane that took you.

It took about a week or two before the dust settled.

We were given both tours of the campus and of the city Rome before classes began. It was awkward, as it always is when you’re around new people in a new environment. People naturally tended to stick to the friends they already had from beforehand and jetlag was a bitch.

Meals were three times a day at a specified time for an hour, freshly made by the Mensa staff led by Nino and Nuccia (mensa means canteen/cafeteria). The Capp Bar, where students can get snacks and drinks, was worked by work study kids led by the amazing Vasile and Alina. A vineyard covered the front of the campus, filled to the brim with grapevines and adorned with gorgeous roses. A few gazebos were placed throughout campus grounds.

My favorite place, however, was the lounge room right next to the Capp Bar. It contains a couple of tables and chairs and four red leather couches great for naps. It was there where I did my studying. Where I had dance parties and karaoke night with my friends. Where I spent late nights with my friends talking about nonsensical things. Where I had my hot chocolate and Sour Cream & Onion Pringles I bought from the Capp.

The majority of my best memories from those four months was in that lounge room.

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On the ground level, there is a tunnel that connects the basement with the lounge room and Capp Bar.

It’s called Shakespeare Alley.

On one side there are Shakespearean characters painted onto the wall. Such as Hamlet, Romeo and Juliet, Puck and Titania, Othello, King Lear and his three daughters, and a few more too.

Every semester students are given the chance to paint and draw on the other wall whatever they wanted (as long as it was PG-13). From quotes to inside jokes to advice, we would gather together in our free time to paint for fun. I distinctly remember a friend and I on a “mission” to paint something very specific.

Here’s some background info. first:

One of the Resident Coordinators would frequently talk about his “traumatic childhood memories,” typically involving a chicken or at least some form of animal. One of which was a fox he accidentally killed with his vomit. Yeah, pretty gross.

So my friend and I banded together for “Mission Fox Killer.” On the wall we painted a fox with it’s soul going towards the sky (melodramatic, I know) with a horror film font used to write “Fox Killer.” It was perfect for when we would get too stressed and needed an outlet.

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That same friend and I also designed our class t-shirt.

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The Rome Program is directed by two people, one is which is Ben. During a large portion of the semester, however, he was back in the States due to his work visa or something. I like to just joke that he was deported from Italy. The week he left our other leader made a joke, saying “We’ve lost Ben. Have you seen him?” Ever since then students constantly made the joke “Where’s Ben?”

I later thought of the idea of having this be the theme for our shirts, while my friend, an awesome art major, did the drawing portion. After giving some options in terms of design placement, we turned it in and won the design competition!

It’s a perfect inside joke that will for sure put a smile on our faces.

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The delicate beginning rush,
The feeling you can know so much,
Without knowing anything at all.
And now that I can put this down,
If I had known what I know now,
I never would have played so nonchalant.

Sometimes we would have lectures in the city.
Since technically campus was on the outskirts of Rome, via driving it takes a little less than an hour and by commute it’s almost two hours (pretty rough). So whenever there was an opportunity to go into Rome via driving, students relished it. From getting gelato to shopping at Tiger, it was always a blast. Tiring, but still a blast. We even managed to attend the Papal Audience! Since this is a hardcore Catholic school, this was particularly a big idea. I’m pretty one of my friends who was standing next to me was almost to have palpitations from seeing the Pope.

Funnily enough, as time went on, walking by the Colosseum and the Roman Forum became the norm. Yes, this is so spoiled of me to say but that was our reality for a whole semester. Going into some of the world’s most beautiful churches, visiting esteemed museums, and so much more was given to us.

My personal favorite is the Trevi Fountain.

It was first introduced to me by the Lizzie McGuire movie (yes, I know), but nothing could have prepared me for how beautiful it is. It’s much bigger than I expected and was just absolutely breathtaking.

And yes, I threw a coin in and made a wish.

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What was nice about the program was that almost everyone had the same classes: English, History, Theology, Philosophy and Art History. There was a handful of students, including myself, that took an Italian class and replaced one the other classes with it. That way everyone suffered studied together.

Every exam felt like a squad mission that we had to complete in order to survive (which is basically true).



Finals week was both the worst and the best.

Worst because, well, finals.

But the best because everyone banded together. It was comforting to know that I wasn’t the only one struggling to retain so much information in a short amount of time.

Plus the study breaks were like mini parties.

It could be playing cards, singing/dancing to music (particularly Thank You, Next by Ariana Grande), or fooling around on the piano that was in the lounge room. It’s always a blast even when it’s serious studying time. Specifically when it gets to the point wherein we’re delirious and laugh at anything.

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The semester was by far the most grueling, exhausting, wonderful, exhilarating, experience I’ve had thus far.

Yes, it had it’s downsides. Such as constantly being exhausted (whether from the traveling and/or the intensive classes), or being in close quarters with everyone 24/7, or having to eat pasta 3 time a day everyday, or not being able to see your family.

But it also gave me the opportunity to travel to so many places! From Paris to Vienna to Venice to London, I was blessed to see some of the most amazing and awesome places in Europe.

I will say, however, that it is most definitely the people that can make or break an experience. And the people I was with those four moths are truly spectacular. From the staff to the students to the professors, everyone contributed to making the semester what is was. Whether you were someone who taught me, or I became close with, was someone I was already close to, or even if we only said “Hi” once in a while passing each other in the hallway, I am thankful for you. So thank you for the most incredible semester of my life! There is truly no word or words to completely encompass everyone about the experience.

F(all) ROME 2018

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This is when the feeling sinks in,
I don’t wanna miss you like this,
Come back.

FROME 2018 PLAYLIST

September by Earth, Wind & Fire

Africa by Toto

Thank You, Next by Ariana Grande

Apple Bottom Jeans by T-Pain

Dancing Queen by ABBA

Take Me Home, Country Roads by John Denver

Edelweiss from The Sound of Music

Hey Stephen by Taylor Swift

Love On Top by Beyonce

Jordan Belfort by Wes Walker & Dyl

Come Back, Be Here by Taylor Swift

xoxo

The Unquenchables

20 More Facts About Me

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Dress from Goodwill.

1.eWhenever I wake up, my left eye is closed until I’m no longer groggy.

2. I’m a true Gemini: one moment I’m going to fight and cut you, in another I want snuggles and love.

3. I hate milk. Unless it’s chocolate.

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Boots from Target.
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Blazer from Charlotte Russe.

4. I hate bananas. They make me want to throw up…

5. My favorite rom com is The Proposal. Then it’s Crazy, Stupid Love.

6. I skipped fourth grade in my Malaysian elementary school, but when I transferred to my American elementary school I returned to my original grade level.

7. Roses and sunflowers are my favorite flowers.

8. I’ve dyed my hair pink, purple, blue, blonde, green, and various shades of brown.

9. My lucky number is 9.

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My train.
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Clutch bought at the Singapore Zoo.

10. My first pair of heels is Audrey Brooke.

11. I’ve never broken a bone. I’ve only ever had sprains.

12. Whataburger is my favorite fast food chain.

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#BLUEFEELS

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13. Chicken is my favorite meat.

14. Libraries are my favorite places.

15. I don’t do drugs, drink alcohol, or smoke. I get lit all on my own.

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16. At one point in time, I considered pursuing photojournalism.

17. My favorite things to do are taking naps, scrapbooking, and eating.

18. Strawberries are my favorite.

19. I’m a mama’s girl.

20. My nose and shoulders are the only parts of me that burn.

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20 Facts About Me

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Gemini necklace from momma. Cross necklace from Charlotte Russe.

1. I was read Enid Blyton books as a child.

2. I hate vegetables. They’re basically grass.

3. My favorite Pixar film is Finding Nemo. Then Monsters Inc..

4. I loved Bratz growing up. I still think they’re better than Barbie.

5. I always curl my toes and feet inward without even realizing it.

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6. When I was a little girl, I thought I wanted to become an artist when I grew up.

7. I call my cousin, Marian, Squirt and she calls me Stretch because of our insane height difference.

8. While I was taking ballet lessons as a child, my teacher told my mother that I trotted like a horse instead of danced. Clearly I wasn’t meant to become a ballerina.

9. The first movie I remember watching is 27 Dresses.

10. I’ve never had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

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11. I attended three different elementary schools. One in Malaysia, two in Texas.

12. I suck at math.

13. My first phone was a Nokia.

14. The first thing I look for at an airport is an Auntie Anne’s.

15. I love watching the trailers that play before a movie starts.

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Shoes are Antonio Melani.
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Dress from Forever 21.
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Fun fact: this was shot in the rain.

16. I used to always say that I’d attend an out-of-state university, but ended up choosing one in Irving, Dallas.

17. The songs I’m currently playing on repeat are Girls Like You by Maroon5 and Back to You by Selena Gomez.

18. When I was very young, I’d refer to myself in third person plural.

19. My first imaginary friend was a pig with wings. For some reason this made my mother worry that Satan was befriending me. Also because of #18.

20. I don’t know how to ride a bike.

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Oh, Relationships.

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Breakups to Makeups top by the brand of the same name.
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Headband from Forever 21.

 

Something the majority of parents dread is having their child being dating.

I suppose it’s meant to signify a bit of “growing up” or whatever.

But I admit that I have never been interested in dating. I have never been the type of girl who dreamt of her first date with the “perfect” guy. My priority, as nerdy as it sounds, has always been my education.

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Pants from Forever 21.

My mother’s first reaction was to ask if I was a lesbian.

If you’re wondering, the answer is no. Unless Beyoncé leaves Jay-Z and suddenly wants me, it’s probably gonna stay that way.

The only time I had ever wanted to be in a relationship was when I was in the eighth grade, and it wasn’t for the right reasons.

My best friend at the time had just gotten her first boyfriend and I’m gonna admit, I was jealous. Not of the guy but of the idea of having someone be interested in you.

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Shoes from JustFab.
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I later on met a guy who very blatantly flirted with me.

And I, being the confused and innocent kid that I was, thought I liked him back. Therefore I, while didn’t exactly encourage the advances, did not exactly stop them either.

In the end we were in a relationship (if you can even call it that) for one weekend.

I basically freaked out and felt suffocated.

I clearly was not ready for a relationship. And to be honest, I’m still not ready.

I was upfront with the guy and told him the truth: I wasn’t ready and I wanted to focus on high school.

We went to different high schools, so I don’t know how he is now or what’s happened to him.

 

What I realized was that wanting to have a relationship versus wanting to be with a specific person are two very different things.

That was probably the first time I had ever been so befuddled by my feelings. I decided that unless I met someone I was truly drawn to, AND I if I felt ready to be with said person, I would focus on my studies and how to become a psychologist.

So girls, and guys, if you don’t want to have a significant other, do not at all feel as though you’re odd or weird. You are in no way obliged to have one or to pursue one. Some people have different priorities, and each one should be respected. The important thing is to be happy and healthy.

It’s okay to be in a relationship.

But it’s also okay to be single.

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For David

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NOTE: This post was originally scheduled for February 14th, 2018. I was, however, bombarded with work and apparently decided to get sick.

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Ring from Ettika.
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Twitches vibes anyone?

Valentine’s Day became a somber event for the paternal side of my family and myself a few years ago.

My cousin, David, took his life when he was just eighteen years old.

I hadn’t seen him since I was six and I will never get the opportunity to see him again.

Although I wasn’t able to get to know who he had become since I last saw him, I’m able to discover what he loved and was passionate about through my uncle’s blog dedicated to him.

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Dress from Forever 21.
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Leggings from Zara.

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It turns out that David and I actually had a few things in common.

We both shared a love for literature (poetry for him specifically) and the arts in general, as well as aspired to one day live and study in New York (clearly I put that goal on hold). Those are just to name a few.

Knowing that he and I shared something, no matter how trivial it may seem, it’s given me a way of connecting with David despite him being gone.

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Most people tend to associate Valentine’s Day with purely romantic love. I’ve learned, however, that love comes in so many forms. One of them being familial.

Thus I will always cherish this day as both a celebration of love and of the life my cousin had led as well as everything that was dear to him.

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Jacket from H&M.

 

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Necklace from Momma inspired by Beauty & the Beast (2017).
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Lips are Savoir Faire from the Beauty and the Beast lip gloss collection.
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Shoes from JustFab.

I would also like to mention that 2018 has had 30 mass shootings thus far already.

Please, please try to give love to all rather than actively creating and seeking violence.

Please pray for Florida and make sure to let all your loved ones know that they are indeed unconditionally loved.

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Self Reflection Part 3

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A while back my mother emailed me nine questions titled “Self Reflection”

She read a post written by Chriselle Lim on The Chriselle Factor which inspired my momma to answer those questions herself.

She then forwarded the questions to me.

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Dress from an indie boutique in Malaysia.

As the title implies, the questions are pretty deep.

Like soul-reaching deep.

So I thought that it’d be better to split them into three in order to not send your brain into overload with my answers. Plus considering that these questions spark equally deep answers, one post encompassing such lengthy paragraphs might be a bit much.

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Sneakers from my momma.

Who has helped me, been influential, or impacted my life this year (2017)?

My mother has, and will always be, my biggest influence and inspiration.

Words will never be able to describe how incredible she is.

As a woman, a mother, and a wife.

Regardless of all her health issues and constant struggle with self-confidence, she continues to push herself to become the best version of herself she can be. Her constant strive to be strong and loving will always be inspirational. Thus it makes me want to become the best version of myself too. In terms of health, mental state, and living life in general. Love you Mummy.

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What am I really proud of?

Aside from graduating high school and beginning college, I’m most proud of asking for help when I was almost at a point wherein I no longer saw living as anything but difficult and excruciating.

While I was depressed, I constantly wondered whether or not there was indeed something actually wrong with me or if it was insignificant.

When I began having panic attacks everyday before school and would thus not attend, my mother and stepfather brought me to someone who, to this day, I talk to about anything that bothers me.

Although technically they could have made me go, after my first session I began starting to accept that I needed help and the only true way to get better was to accept the help being presented to me.

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Is everything I have done this year (2017) in alignment with my big dream or goal?

My hope is to one day earn a Ph. D. in psychology in order to help other people who suffer and need the type of help I need too.

I am now at a university that allows me to take classes which teach me things that will better me as a psychology student and, in the long run, a psychologist.

I will most definitely do my best to achieve my goal/dream.

I feel as though it is what I was fated to do.

I know it is what I’m meant to do.

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Here are the questions for you to answer as well:

1. What were my best achievements this year?

2. How did these achievements make me feel?

3. What were my 3 biggest challenges or obstacles I faced this year? How did I overcome them? Who did I become as a result?

4. How have I developed or changed as a person?

5. What have I done differently this year? What new people have I met or new experiences have I had?

6. How much fun have I had this year? Was I fulfilled?

7. Who has helped me, been influential, or impacted my life this year?

8. What am I really proud of?

9. Is everything I have done this year in alignment with my big dream or goal?

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Self Reflection Part 2

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A while back my mother emailed me nine questions titled “Self Reflection”

She read a post written by Chriselle Lim on The Chriselle Factor which inspired my momma to answer those questions herself.

She then forwarded the questions to me.

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As the title implies, the questions are pretty deep.

Like soul-reaching deep.

So I thought that it’d be better to split them into three in order to not send your brain into overload with my answers. Plus considering that these questions spark equally deep answers, one post encompassing such lengthy paragraphs might be a bit much.

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Shades from Poshmark.

How have I developed or changed as a person?

I think, or at least I’d like to think, that I’ve become kinder and more sociable.

A few years prior to getting my green card, I became a very angsty and hostile person who was uncomfortable being around new people. Which in turn made me seem like a bitch. And not the good kind.

Maybe it was just being in “that” age, or maybe it was the transition into a whole new continent, or going back to public school, or perhaps it was the beginnings of what I now know to be my anxiety and depression.

Either way I began to realize that I couldn’t be that way forever.

I had to learn how to let people in.

I had to learn how to be open to leaving the house and doing something other then napping or watching tv shows.

I’m still sassy and scary.

That will probably never change. But at least I can learn how to control myself and determine what is the right amount and type of attitude to exude.

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Pants from Creations for a Cause.
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Earrings from Hot Topic. Lips is By Terry called Chocolate Tea.
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Shoes from an indie boutique in Malaysia.

What have I done differently this year (2017)? What new people have I met or new experiences have I had?

As I mentioned before, I’ve become more outgoing.

By putting myself out there I’ve allowed myself to make new friends at my university, and thus, have new experiences. By “new” I don’t mean like the stereotypical college activities people think of: drinking, partying, skipping class, drugs, sex, etc.

By “new” I mean going out to the bleachers and dancing to music, making pancakes or cookies in the common kitchen, studying on the grass on a nice breezy day, going to a nail salon for a manicure, hanging out at Chinatown while drinking bubble tea, and staying out at night jamming out to throwback songs.

For some these things may not seem too extravagant.

But the people you’re with are as equally important as the activity itself.

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 How much fun have I had this year (2017)? Was I fulfilled?

2017 was a crazy year filled with it’s ups and downs.

But when I think back to that year, I think of it fondly.

I was fulfilled in the sense that I had ended a chapter in my life that I’m proud to have accomplished (graduating high school) because of how long it seemed to have taken. Not to mention the constant motivation to do well in order to get into college.

It’s hard to accurately put into words the relief and joy I felt when I received my first university acceptance letter. Although in the end I chose to not attend that school, the thought that there was indeed a university that wanted me was one of the most fulfilling emotions I have had in my life thus far.

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Here are the questions for you to answer as well:

1. What were my best achievements this year?

2. How did these achievements make me feel?

3. What were my 3 biggest challenges or obstacles I faced this year? How did I overcome them? Who did I become as a result?

4. How have I developed or changed as a person?

5. What have I done differently this year? What new people have I met or new experiences have I had?

6. How much fun have I had this year? Was I fulfilled?

7. Who has helped me, been influential, or impacted my life this year?

8. What am I really proud of?

9. Is everything I have done this year in alignment with my big dream or goal?

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Hello 2018!

Self Reflection Part 1

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A while back my mother emailed me nine questions titled “Self Reflection”

She read a post written by Chriselle Lim on The Chriselle Factor which inspired my momma to answer those questions herself.

She then forwarded the questions to me.

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Top from Forever 21.

As the title implies, the questions are pretty deep.

Like soul-reaching deep.

So I thought that it’d be better to split them into three in order to not send your brain into overload with my answers. Plus considering that these questions spark equally deep answers, one post encompassing such lengthy paragraphs might be a bit much.

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What were my best achievements this year (2017)?

My greatest achievements of 2017 is graduating from my high school, Memorial Senior High School, and attending my university, the University of Dallas (not the University of Texas at Dallas).

For those who don’t know, which is probably most of you, there was point during my high school experience wherein I sincerely believed I would not be able to graduate from high school or want to live long enough to see it happen. But once I realized that I both needed and should not be shamed of asking for help, the world began to not look so grim and dark anymore.

For similar reasons I did not think I would make it to college.

I also had a fear, that I think the majority of students have, that I wouldn’t be accepted into any university. Rejection is already a bitter pill to swallow. Imagine being rejected multiple times at such a fragile time. If it weren’t for the fact that applying to schools is quite expensive itself, I probably would’ve applied to twenty (I ended up applying to eight with some ending up being free).

Persevering will always be my greatest achievement.

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Shades from Poshmark. Lips are By Terry called Chocolate Tea.
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#MOODYVIBES

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How did these achievements make me feel?

For my high school graduation I was initially in denial.

Once it began to sink in I became excited, relieved, and with a slight feeling of dread.

I did not like my high school. At all.

While it gave me a pretty good education, the white privilege and overbearing focus on athletics was discouraging for anyone else who did not fit the mold. So once I faced my impending departure, I practically yelled “Hallelujah!”

It’s always exciting to start a new phase in one’s life, just as it is terrifying. Leaving behind what and who you know for something new, especially on your own, can freak any person out.

After a month into university, I began to truly love being a college student. I felt accomplished and excited that I was finally beginning my studies in a field that I’m passionate about and interested in.

Psychology.

Overall I feel proud about what I’ve accomplished.

And slightly still in denial because it seemed not too long ago that I was finishing fifth grade at Frostwood Elementary School.

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What were my 3 biggest challenges or obstacles I faced this year (2017)? How did I overcome them? Who did I become as a result?

My greatest challenges was coming to terms with saying goodbye to my family and friends at home, transitioning into university life and thus living on my own, and making more of an effort to socialize.

Saying goodbye to anything or anyone, whether good or bad (thankfully good in my case), is a heart-wrenching thing to overcome. When I refer to goodbyes, I mean saying farewell to what you’ve had for a long time and have always known. For me that was seeing my mother and being with her everyday, as well as joking and eating with my friends everywhere we went. I’ve come to realize, however, that just because my norm has now changed it doesn’t mean that I’ll never have those things again. Winter and summer vacations allow me to have them without having to give up the new norm I’ve come to know.

Surprisingly, transitioning into college life was much easier than I had expected. I suppose I was more willing to meet and talk to new people than I was in high school. In high school, many of the students were the same from middle school and thus nothing really changed for me. But at university I was more open to my new environment and new people that came with it. I suppose it’s also because I knew that I couldn’t just be on my own forever 24/7. According to my philosophy class, man will always needs friendship as much as he needs water to live. I’m glad that I went for it because I’ve met some pretty incredible people here at UD.

As I mentioned before, socializing required a greater effort on  my part. Perhaps it’s just in my nature or maybe it’s because of my homeschooling, but I’ve always been more of an introvert. After I began managing my anxiety and depression, however, I decided to go out more and de-stress with my loved ones. Like it would with anyone, going out of one’s comfort zone and pushing yourself is never an easy task. But it allowed me to have new experiences (that I was still comfortable with because, you know, college) that brought me to meet people that have helped make my college experience wonderful and memorable (for the right reasons).

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#READYFOR2018
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Shoes are Betsey Johnson.

Here are the questions for you to answer as well:

1. What were my best achievements this year?

2. How did these achievements make me feel?

3. What were my 3 biggest challenges or obstacles I faced this year? How did I overcome them? Who did I become as a result?

4. How have I developed or changed as a person?

5. What have I done differently this year? What new people have I met or new experiences have I had?

6. How much fun have I had this year? Was I fulfilled?

7. Who has helped me, been influential, or impacted my life this year?

8. What am I really proud of?

9. Is everything I have done this year in alignment with my big dream or goal?

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